Day Off

Jul. 25th, 2017 10:28 pm
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I ended up in town anyway because it was nice to have a walk and because I got to have coffee with [personal profile] keziath that way :)

Pokémon have been caught, comics have been read, pottering about has been achieved. And Kheldar was generous enough to reduce me to fits of giggles while he was basking on the balcony. His paws twitched. His tail twitched. His tail was expertly bought under control so that the important business of sleeping in the sun could continue. After a few minutes he raised his head, rested it on the side of his water bowl and fell asleep again.

Sploosh!

And now I know why my cat occasionally turns up with a damp head when the rest of him is dry. We have the best Kheldar. The best.
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Insomnia, as I think we all know, is a bitch and it turns me into a bit of one. I think it does all of us to an extent. Who doesn't get a little bit cranky and snappy when they're overly tired? I get insomnia as a symptom of being schizoaffective, I get irritable as a symptom and I get irritable because I'm tired. It's all a vicious circle as most things are with mental health.

In a way I'm kind of used to not sleeping properly and most of my coping methods work most of the time. This is a special circumstance. I know I'm stressed and anxious, I don't deal with change and I'm not sleeping right because of it. I probably won't sleep right for weeks, if not months, because of it. I do have a prescription for sleeping pills if I need them and I hate them but I might have to rely on them for a while.

Too much of a lack of sleep makes all the other shit even harder to deal with... and as with vicious circles round and round we go.

S is also struggling to sleep properly because of the cast on her leg. She's not napping so much during the day either because she's not taking so many painkilers. S is not used to not getting enough sleep and she's getting really grouchy with it. She's also making herself wired by drinking caffeine to wake herself up but isn't doing anything to work off the energy... and so she can't sleep.
I feel really bad for her. She's has never had insomnia. She's seen me dealing with it for years and she told me that now she's experienced it just a little and has a vague idea of just some of what I go through, she told me she doesn't know how I cope. She made me cry when she cuddled me and said she was proud of me for keeping fighting through the darkness.

I feel really bad for J actually. He's got both of us suffering with sleep deprivation and being tired and irritable. How he doesn't yell at us when we're both being bitches I don't know. He just shrugs and says he knows he don't mean it, and he also said to me there'd be no point and that it would resolve anything. That man is a saint.

I probably had a point when I sat down and started to write but that was about 15 minutes ago now and I don't actually remember anymore. I'm tired, like the kind of tired where if I close my eyes too long I might actually go to sleep so I might crawl into bed. Even if all I do is nap for a few hours and I'm wide awake again after, I think that would be better than sitting here for 2 hours until 'bedtime'. I know I'm supposed to 'maintain regular sleep patterns' but I think in the current situation, sleeping when tired is more important.

When you feel like letting go...

Jul. 24th, 2017 07:17 pm
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Apparently, sometimes you just need to dance in the rain!

It’s been an… odd couple of months, mental health wise. I’ve been struggling and trying to deny it and back on my meds for three weeks now. I had the nightmare 10 days or so of riding out the waves of side-effects. Obviously, the meds aren’t fully functioning yet but I’m starting to see some admittedly small changes.

This week… this week has been very stressful at work.
Facilities me has been run off her feet sorting out the after effects of a fire in the warehouse.
Finance me has had some pretty epic yelling suppliers. There have been tears and there have been tantrums!

It all came to a head on Thursday afternoon. I snapped at a supplier on the phone, I hid in the loo and cried multiple times. I ate my weight in chocolate a few times over. I was… shall we actively fighting the urge to do something stupid. I mostly achieved it.

Throw in a hellish drive down to London on Friday (it took me 7 hours to drive 170 miles!) and the weather at the weekend and I almost said fuck it and didn’t go.

But I did.

Saturday, in an utterly shocking statement, I went to a Raintown gig. They were playing in Canada Square as part of Nashville meets London. Kicked the whole thing off which was AWESOME. It was slightly damp in the way that I was soaked through my pac-a-mac. I’d hit the point I was completely drenched, couldn’t physically get any wetter.

I just… I let go. I was singing my heart out, crying my eyes out, laughing, and just… yeah dancing in the rain. It was what I needed.

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Jul. 24th, 2017 03:43 pm
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The weather doesn't know if it's coming or going and neither does Kheldar. One minute we're having torrential downpours and the next it's basking on the balcony in the sunshine weather.

I've had a busy weekend and a stupidly busy Monday and I suspect I'm going home late because I'm not in tomorrow and there are things that sadly can't be left until Wednesday. But at least this week's remote build instructor is absolutely lovely to work with.

In other news I am definitely spending too much time visiting coffee shops. Today's barista didn't even ask my name :)

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Teen Wolf/Supernatural xover

Jul. 24th, 2017 11:53 am
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My last art

Derek/Stiles and eventually Derek/Stiles/Dean

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http://archiveofourown.org/works/11596683

Kuddos and comments are appreciate, thanks you.

Countdown to conversion day

Jul. 23rd, 2017 10:44 pm
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I went to see Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets today. Cut for negativity more than spoilers. )

For the Forever Knight fans: A friend of mine recently applied for Canadian citizenship, and a few weeks later received an email informing him that the processing of his application has now begun and also providing him with a link to the website where he can download the citizenship test study guide in either print or audio format. Furthermore, the email continued, the audio version is narrated by a group of famous Canadians. My friend didn't recognize any of the names, but I recognized a couple, including one that I thought might be of mild interest to handful of you: Geraint Wyn Davies. If any of you would like to listen to Nick Knight discuss the regions of Canada, you can do so here.

I was reading some advice today on how to improve ease of writing. The first step the site recommended is to write first thing in the morning, before doing anything else, or at least before reading anything else. It apparently doesn't matter what you write as long as you write something; recounting the previous night's dreams or discussing in detail how much you hate the activity are both perfectly valid options. I think I might try it for a bit and see what happens, if I can just bring myself to wake up a little earlier.

I have another week of vacation coming up soon. I should start putting together a list of the things I'd like to accomplish. Bake, definitely; maybe visit the bank; maybe go to the beach. That's a start.

Saving Hope

Jul. 23rd, 2017 06:35 pm
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I just bought myself the Pilot episode, since I've seen some posts and tweets about it. I'm hoping it'll be something I get hooked on since Michael Shanks, especially since Amazon has it and I won't have to go through a VPN to watch it like I was having to do with Torri Higginson's show, This Life.

So potential new fandom, because I need another. I'm still indulging in Stargate, of course, but I haven't been interested in ST or MCU, both of which I used to spend massive amounts of time writing for the kink memes. And I adore comment_fic, but I've been a bit blasé about writing for the fandoms I know best. A bit of writer's block perhaps, since the video for Pathology class has me a wee stressed, though new fandoms always break that up nicely.

I know at least one person on my flist has seen it, anyone else? Am I going to be hooked?

Schedules

Jul. 23rd, 2017 08:33 pm
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I really need to work out a way of getting onto DW into my normal evening schedule. Slot it in between somewhere after doing the dishes because I feel like I'm never getting online to post or to read or to comment. Or even to work on all the fic I'm wanting to write! I'm so used to my normal routine but I like coming online so more than one evening a week would be nice!

Hello Dreamwidth. Hope you've had a nice week since we last spoke. Mine's been very much 'same old, same old' which in a way is good and a way isn't because... well, see above!

I also need to figure out things to talk about. Maybe I'll find one of those '30 day memes' for August or something. I'm sure these things used to be easy but I really have no life and 'I went to work, I did bank stuff, I came home, I cooked, I did housework, I watched TV and went to bed' doesn't exactly make for an interesting blog post, does it? LOL

Ben, the lovely boyfriend, came around this afternoon with a present for me which I'm very excited to play with. He got me a Colouring for Grown-Up Children - Colouring Book Set which he says was a reward for sorting out my paperwork and filing it rather than having it piled up on my kitchen table - that I now have something to use my kitchen table for.
Two colouring books featuring animals, flowers, butterflies and abstract images, and a pack of 36 colouring pencils.

Suggestions needed for motto

Jul. 23rd, 2017 06:37 pm
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 I'm nearing the end of a piece of cross-stitch that I've been working on for about a decade.  It isn't that big a project, but I had detours into knitting another other embroideries.  This used to be my 'travel' embroidery, in a case ready to go and easy to take anywhere knowing that I had all the necessary bits to do it.

It had a border of poppies and cornflowers and space for my own text in the middle.

But I can't decide what words to put in the centre.  It can't be too lengthy, a dozen words at most, and fewer might be better.

I'm hunting for something that says we don't need loads of possessions to be happy; that a garden is a great source of contentment; that life is to be enjoyed while you have it and maybe something ecological as well.

Now, clearly one can't manage all of that....


Random ideas have included:


Gardeners live longer

To be content is the key to happiness

We only have one world, treat it gently


Toss ideas at me.  Anything that sounds good.


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I haven't posted in what feels like a lifetime because the muse hasn't been around much, but she made an appearance today so I made some artwork for the SGA episode Suspicion. The bigger version looks better than the squinty one. :D

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